My Stress Levels!

From October I have been experiencing tension headaches.

A month before, I had just joined a new school. I moved from a comprehensive secondary school to a grammar sixth form. So basically finished GCSE and moved schools to start A level.

My first thoughts about my headaches was that I was sick. Like we all do.

“Oh, no! I’ve got a headache, must be getting a cold then.”

But I was getting headaches four or five times a day lasting anywhere between thirty minutes and four hours.

It was agony!

So, my parents and I thought it’s time to see the doctor. So we did. We went to our local GP, who then referred me to a private consultant for an MRI scan. Saying that it’ll be quicker privately.

A few weeks later I had the MRI. Which was quite scary, not going to lie. My mum had to stay in the room and everything and I refused to open my eyes while in the machine in case I went blind or something ridiculous because of all the really bright lights inside.

Afterwards, my MRI came back clear.

So no tumour. Great! :)

Well…. Not really.

Do any of you prefer to know what the problem is so that a solution is easily calculated? I am definitely like that. So knowing that nothing was wrong with me wasn’t really a relief. It just made the mystery of my headaches even more complicated.

I’m not saying that I want cancer or anything. I wouldn’t wish that on my worst enemy. Well maybe Hitler. But, if it were something of that nature or even just physical then I would be happy. To have something physical that you could work towards destroying would be amazing. As when it is destroyed the headaches would disappear and I would be cured.

Instead of this.

After eleven months of horrible headaches to deal with on a daily basis, while coping with AS exams and the whole ‘moving to a new school’ fitting in phase; it’s exhausting.

The consultant gave me medication of a beta blocker, where your heart rate is lowered in hope that that stops the headaches, when dietary arrangements didn’t prove fruitful.

It has been raised from two tablets a day to four tablets a day to six tablets a day.

It’s a never ending cycle.

And I am getting so tired and unhappy.

It seems that my life is a continuous daily dose of medication, which doesn’t help.

I still get daily headaches and I still have to take both my medication and nurofen.

I know what you must be thinking. Her stress levels are through the roof.

I know. They are!

My AS exams have been so stressful and having these headaches has made my concentration go right down; I really do think that my headaches have impaired my exam outcome. (Which I’ll know next week, I am so nervous!)

And knowing that I have nothing wrong with me, yet I still get headaches only makes things ten times as worse.

I get even more stressed about the fact that I do have headaches, which in turn gives me more headaches because I’m so stressed.

Hurgghhh! 

It seems that even when I’m not stressed, I still get headaches.

I have tried dietary arrangement to try to help. Nothing.

I have tried medication. Nothing.

What do I do now?

Does anyone have any thoughts?

Best Wishes! Xxx

P.S. I don't really have any scheduled post times. So will probably only post when something I really want to write about happens. X 

P.P.S. I'm really sorry to start off on a negative, however this is my life and it is true. X